Sooooo, something changed in the last few weeks, I feel better and not so much stressed anymore - even if I definitely should stop to do such unhealty stuff like drinking 30 beers a week or smoking a pack of cigarettes a day. Well, whatever! xD
I finally found a room where I can stay until march, new friends who are cool and nice and really kind to me although we know each other only since a short time and... a boyfriend (o__o) who is similar to me and for reasons I cant really explain (XD) I seem to like a lot. But yeah, I am too fucked up about relationships so I hope not to mess everything up as always xD
The greatest thing is, I am flying to Italy in 10 days to see my ´eople´ again and then when I come back I won´t be anymore aupair in this crazy family! *O*
Of course I´ll have to look for another job, and I think it will be rather hard until then - I will starve and wont have much money for concerts (and beer) ;___; But everything sounds better than living with these people... so I am really looking forward to that. ^^

Wish me luck guys~
But I know I will make it anyway. >w>


Matty